A long overdue "hello" to everyone. First I want to thank all of you who have left comments and also such wonderful emails. You are all a blessing to me and I am very thankful for each one of you.
I'm gradually getting my strength back, but it's returning at a very slow pace. I'm not able to do too much in the way of creating as I am having to take pain medicine as it is prescribed...which I usually don't do because it makes me groggy and unable to concentrate. Sometimes I just feel so sad, lonely and useless. It's really hard not to give up, even though I have a lot to live for. My niece is due in September and I'll have another little one to spoil along with my other great-neices and great-nephews...I have friends and family who care and some who even love me...and I still have my wits about me most days. Still, I seem to be struggling just to find the strength to keep pushing on. Most days, I feel like I'm crawling uphill on a mountain of sand. It seems a vicious cycle: when my pain stays bad, the depression worsens and when my depression is bad, my pain worsens. I go to the doctor tomorrow and I'm going to ask to have my depression medicine changed. I've been on Celexa for about six or seven years and I think either I've become used to it, or some of the newer medicines I'm on makes it less efficacious.
I'm sorry that I'm on such a downer right now and don't have freebies for you. I really am trying to get back in the swing of things. I really NEED to for my own self-worth. It pleases me greatly to design for all of you. In the meantime, please keep me in your prayers and send me good thoughts. Even if I don't respond to each one of you personally, know that your kind words uplift me and fill me with warmth...even if just for a while.
Love to all of you,