A long overdue "hello" to everyone. First I want to thank all of you who have left comments and also such wonderful emails. You are all a blessing to me and I am very thankful for each one of you.
I'm gradually getting my strength back, but it's returning at a very slow pace. I'm not able to do too much in the way of creating as I am having to take pain medicine as it is prescribed...which I usually don't do because it makes me groggy and unable to concentrate. Sometimes I just feel so sad, lonely and useless. It's really hard not to give up, even though I have a lot to live for. My niece is due in September and I'll have another little one to spoil along with my other great-neices and great-nephews...I have friends and family who care and some who even love me...and I still have my wits about me most days. Still, I seem to be struggling just to find the strength to keep pushing on. Most days, I feel like I'm crawling uphill on a mountain of sand. It seems a vicious cycle: when my pain stays bad, the depression worsens and when my depression is bad, my pain worsens. I go to the doctor tomorrow and I'm going to ask to have my depression medicine changed. I've been on Celexa for about six or seven years and I think either I've become used to it, or some of the newer medicines I'm on makes it less efficacious.
I'm sorry that I'm on such a downer right now and don't have freebies for you. I really am trying to get back in the swing of things. I really NEED to for my own self-worth. It pleases me greatly to design for all of you. In the meantime, please keep me in your prayers and send me good thoughts. Even if I don't respond to each one of you personally, know that your kind words uplift me and fill me with warmth...even if just for a while.
Love to all of you,
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Hi everyone. Thanks for your emails and comments. I'm sorry to worry any of you with my absence. Gals, the truth is that I'm really struggling to get from one day to the next and I feel guilty if I post here when I don't have a freebie for you. My health issues are really getting me down. If I take enough pain meds so that I'm not in excruciating pain, I find that my creativity really suffers. It's hard to concentrate. Each day my depression seems to get a stronger hold on me but I am really trying to keep my head above water. Please, keep me in your prayers and I hope to be back soon with a little something for you all.