"Wake every day with a WINGED HEART and give thanks for another day of LOVING." (Khalil Gibran)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Checking in, an Apology, and a Prayer Request

Hi everyone. So sorry it's been so long since I've written. I'm really struggling with my health issues. I have been trying a new medication regimen that the doctor gave me to control the pain I have from my back and my messed up chest. To be honest, I'd really rather just try to tough it out, but the level of pain I have been having has started affecting my blood sugar and my blood pressure. I have to confess that I didn't believe the doctor was right when he said how much harm it was causing me but I now know he was correct. I started taking the additional dosages of the narcotic medications I take regularly, and my blood sugar lowered as the pain level became more manageable. The problem with this is that I feel like a zombie all the time. Yes, I'm in less pain, but what good is that if I can't function? Some of the pain is coming from my ventral hernia and I know it needs operated on, the doctor told me this, but I can't even begin to tell you how I feel about having a fourteenth surgery! The additional narcotics are also messing up my stomach and aggravating my colon issues. I am SOOOOOO darned uncomfortable!

I'm having such a hard time emotionally dealing with this, as well as wrapping my head around what this means for my future. With all this confusion and depression, my creative mojo has gone out the window! I feel so guilty that I haven't finished the Mother's Day kit I was working on. Mother's Day is very hard for me anyway. Most of you already know my Dear Mother has been gone for more than ten years, and my stepmother just past away this year. What I wouldn't give to have my Mom to talk to about what is happening to me. I feel that I have already lost so much of my life, but that I've been able to hold on to some of what makes "me" me. A big part of that is my creativity. I HATE it when I don't have the creative juices flowing in me!

Please forgive me if it sounds like I'm whining. I'm really rather distraught and even little things have become hard for me to handle these days. I know that with God's help and with all of your support, I'll get back on track but please, PLEASE, keep me in your prayers.

I promise I'll be back with some freebies soon, as well as a wonderful announcement about my new Creative Team members! I'm just waiting for confirmation that they accept the positions and I will introduce you to them. Thanks to everyone who applied; I'm touched you feel my work is good enough. I may be adding more team members in the future, but for right now, I have chosen two wonderful women to join Patti.

Again, I'm sorry I haven't had any freebies for you lately and I ask for your prayers and good thoughts. Geesh, I really could use a hug right now!!!

Blessings to you all,


Sharon aka Scrapcat4914 said...

HUGE GENTLE HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No need to ask for prayers because they are heading your way!!!!!!!!!!
Also know need to apoligze for writting about it!!!!
ITs GOOD TO LET IT OUT & I'm ALWAYS HERE TO LISTEN EVEN if I dont comment ever day on my daily visit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nani said...

Sally, I’m so glad that you checked in! I’ve been checking my subscription notices for a new entry with nothing here for days! I am sorry that you’re not well, though. I would have rather heard you were doing something fun! Please know you are in my prayers and good thoughts. Finding the balance between managing pain and being too effected by the medication is difficult but important! Stay strong and deal with the transition! You’ll adjust and your creative mojo will return...probably with gusto for your trouble! Remember, God never gives you more to bear than he gave you strength to bear. Times like this are to show you how strong he made you!

Don’t worry at all about having freebies available! Get better, get adjusted, THEN worry about it. We’ll be here - you’re worth the wait!

sandy said...

sending a hug along with my prayers for you

Anonymous said...

Dearest Sally,

Please only think about getting well and don't worry about us gals and guys out here! I'm sure everyone has you in their prayers. Take care and I agree you're worth the wait!

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